on my way to my tuitee's house.. i smiled.
I have no idea why am I so happy.
perharps.. dar is coming home..
and i feel more relieved.
or perharps.. i know that there are people out there, caring for me.
many times i thought that people always only care for themselves.
and little that i know that there are actually people genuinely care about you.

someone once told me, not to let other people's problem be my problem.
this is one thing that i still cant achieve.
when someone needs help, i will think of ways to help him or her..
and when i know that I cant be of any help, i feel useless.
and sometimes because of this is affects my mood..
oh well..
maybe im born with it..
as in.. in helping people who come asking for help. HAHA!

being a "councillor" for other people doesnt do any good to myself. =S
i can say things to other people, and i cant say those same things to myself.
sometimes i wonder why i have the courage to reprimand people, to give people advice, and i cant even give myself advice, cant even console myself, cant even control my own emotions.
and when i feel down or not feel like talking, sometimes i just hate myself.. and sometimes, i just want to hide.

blah.
sinkuan said that she would kill that evil twin inside me.
i hope she does.
i really hate that side of me.

HAHAHA.
okay, i guess its time to sleep. =D
nitey nite!
Muacks!